不再错了再错

这是我第一篇用华文写的blog....

发生什么事.... 我也不想说了, 虽然我悲伤时会咬手, 不代表我在自残啦, 也别担心我会自杀, 我还不至于那么“勇敢”...

只是暂时不知怎么发泄那情绪, 所以才咬手.... 因为嘴巴就是想要咬一点东西, 我又不想咬书本, 想乱抛什么东西也没有, 因为我手上只有hp, 总不能抛它吧..

改次不会这样啦, 我不想再让自己错了再错

心情现在平复了一点... 我也不会想太多了...

 

可能有些人不懂我再说什么, 其实问题一点也不大, 我也不懂我为什么这么激动, 也看我在不在乎而已啦.....

我承认我是很情绪化, 很容易流泪, 可是好在我也很容易忘了不开心的事....

无聊篇， 看了别打我呵。。

don have the passion to study....

on9 for 2 hours, all i did is reading blogs, wut de hell m i doin?! test, exams coming up, homework, assignment due soon, and look wut the hell m i doin?! ahhhhhh!!!! hate it y i cant concentrate, y i get distracted? arghhhh, hate "u"!!!!!!!

 

我可以打华文了！！！ 好好玩啊， 哈哈哈哈哈！

anyway, 现在真的不得空玩了， 再不赶功课的话， 我真的是完了！哈哈哈哈！（很有押韵eh)

NS

typing in ic no. carefully....

hope dat i can kena but oso scared dat i will kena

and de result is...

 

 

 

"no. kp anda tidak terdapat dalam senarai yang dipilih"

 

 

 

 

 

kinda disappoint, but relieve....

until now i m stil not in de list, if i really did kena, my dad oso wont allow...

sigh...

 

PS: put the website here for those who wanna check.. click this--> dead me! 

gd luck for all...

another long day, another long post, soreee hehe

august....

y so many ppl born in august...

haha, "the someone" bday also coming soon....

thx theng for the idea, i m writing this blog now abt today's outing, hahaha, but i oso wanna write abt it anyway

and btw, thx theng for not hating me, u r the 1st feedback i get, woohoo!!

 

hmmm, so how do i begin...

one of my frens in school having birthday outing today, so lucky i got invited, haha

morning, i nearly miss de bus, coz i m too mi mo, i have to admit, haha.

then i taking bus alone to city, she say meet at 'arirang', but i haven been there b4, well no point, try to figure the way to myself..

well i reached there, trying to find the way but i bump into wrong place, then i go back again, and finally!!!!

i found arirang!

i m hell happy! i did it ! all by myself! yesh!

but when i peep in the restaurant, cant c anyone, mayb upstairs i guess..

so i call angeline (angeline is the bday gal)....

..where r u? i m at arirang..... ah ehh we r at timezone now.... wut?!!!

NOTE: i m wearing high heels, coz my sport shoe is wet...

swt, so no point la, i walk to timezone which is 1000km away (jkjk)

finally, in timezone, oh spot someone! found others! anyway not angry la, cant angry at bday gal, haha, plus i still owe her a present (opps)

guess wut... they say they r heading to arirang.........

..........

my feet ah!  

goin back to arirang again, and the guys came as well (i din know guys r here), sums up... i think 20 people.. (5 gals, the rest guys)

k la, don care, eat eat more important

finally can sit and rest haha... the eating part i think i wud just skip, mayb talk a bit abt it..

arirang ya, korean bbq, so we r eating korean bbq obviously! quite nice but oso quite expensive, but i din pay, haha, the guys dats paying this time, for angeline and the rest (gurls). btw get to listen matt speaking korean haha..

after that went to icey ice, i must say, this is so so so so nice!!!

icey ice, sounds like icecream shop, indeed, it is something like dis, actually more like ice kacang, but not as simple as ice kacang! it is snowy, looks like emmm, "ice floss", i dunno malaysia have or not, but is really nice! my 1st time trying, got many flavours and i pick chocolate with nuts and almond, others order this call "twin icey tower" with two kind of toppings, mango and strawberry, and another jambo size of my one, wahaha, but is really really delicious!

finish lunch and desert, ppl all split up, most guys went dota, zhida and matt staying with the gals, and we went harbour town

NOTE: harbour town is a not exactly a town, haha, it is a shopping place, all the branded stuffs, converse, nike... their factory outlet all in harbour town..

tricia said she wans to buy jackets, we took train from city, and abt 5 minutes walk after train. we split up during the walk, left angeline with matt alone, the rest ciao taking the so called "short cut", haha... actually i did dat on purpose, hmmm, ever since the 1st day seeing these two ppl, i already have a feeling they shud be together, but dunno they got bf or gf or not in the 1st place, haha, i dunno y eh, wud be very happy seeing them two actually couple, just how much i hope dong liang can go out with xin ling in real life haha...

skip the shopping part la

goin back home dat time is kinda miserable, emm, the story too long.... and once again, i think i said sumthing wrong, dunno if she heard it... aikss din mean too.... haih.....

k la, dats all for the outings, overall is quite happy, just the last part dat turn out to be like "dat"... 

struggle for existance

actually...

i have been refreshing this page again and again

i open and close the window again and again

i feels like i wanna write sumthing

but then i went blank again and again

my life's been boring, nvr change, is nver worth writting, not a single post in my blog dat is interesting

seriously haha, coz dats my life haha

fortunately i m free today, so i decided to on9

is been busy these few days

work plus school, i still havent get used to it...

but at the same time unfortunately today, when i start chatting to anyone, then the convo got suspended

haih, my connection problem..? or i just got ignored...?

hmmm, i think i wud rather believe the former one... 

so i decided to blog...

but i find nth betta to say... haha sorry la theng, thx for reading my boring blog!

so tomolo goin out with frens in aus, celebrate her 17th bday, and i havent got any presents, haha

guilty la...

i don think she will read this thing, so den can blog abt her haha...

this gal here, one of my closest fren in my yr...

anyway, sometimes still find gaps while talking to her, not just her, actually most ppl in here (school)

anyone find me quite mean in school? haha.. wut can i say... dats not me

is been quite a while, is not easy for ppl like me to join in a group...

i tried, think of anything i cud say, i wud say, but apparently it dosent work, haha..

or mayb shud i be isolated from everyone, completely? so rather saves the brainstorming for ideas to talk...

hmmm, but i know i cant..

i realise, i m scared being alone by myself, but yet i have difficulties to join in a group...

haih, so wut shud i say.... so sometimes i wonder did others hate me, dats y they wud rather ignore me..

"if others hate me, dat just makes me hate myself even more "

i guess i think too much, haha

and i oso outta topic haha

anyway dats all my problem, or mayb just wait till someday, things might get betta

i m waitin for dat day

"我不奢望, 可是我期待!"

let me know if u hate me ok? haha, oso let me know if u dont... thx lo..

 

PS: i know this is kinda stupid, i just wan to know who else is reading my blog, just leave a comment if u wud, i don mind if dont, just curious haha, even random ppl oso can.. nice to meet anyone 

 

home...?

dad flew back to malaysia....

once again in de airport.... perth airport... seeing others departing and arriving.. kinda use to it now.... anyway, again not me dat is flying.. hmm wait till some day la!

suddenly tot of a scene dat i not willing to see it happens... this time i have more urge of going back malaysia, hmm becoz of wut i don really know, just feels like it (haha i always dunno y).. then this sudden thought dat strikes me, makes me afraid... no.... haih, is actually gradually becoming a fact now...

nowadays, less and less contact with malaysia ppl, as if, slowly gets forgotten... i dunno how others thinking... i don really mind, i mean is normal right.. now everyone living in different environment, once the very gd fren may become strangers one day...

nah, i do mind, haha... i m speaking in how i feel, i don wish dis offence anyone, not dat i m ditching my malaysia mates, or i m being ditched (i don think dis will happen rite? haha) ... just very obvious rite? last time living in malaysia, studying, at least i still have school mates.. after i left the school, the not so close become strangers, the quite close become not so close, and the very close ones.... still very close.. haha.. just dats it...! get wut i meant, get wut i m worrying abt...?

straight forward way of saying it! is dat now frens in malaysia getting less and less, and besides dat... wut is the reason goin back now? do i still wish to go back for long..? do i still think malaysia is my 'home' right now? do i still have something dat worthwhile for me to call

malaysia my 'home'...

hmmm know wut i have been trying to say? i know some ppl will say:" hey i still remember u la; u still got me mah.. haha"

i know, even though not much, i still have frens in malaysia, my very best mates.. haha, but wut i meant is generally.. besides dat, nth in malaysia dat i belongs to..... my family is here, i m studying here, and of coz i don wish to work at malaysia in future, dats y! goin back to malaysia is just like goin on holiday! as if not my 'home' anymore!

 

.......... yea, dats wut i m afraid....

recently..

i blog more frequently nowadays, not dat i have more interesting stories to tell... just a habit now.. so others might see a lot of craps in here haha..

 

my job, now kinda get use to it haha, so i have to taken back wut i said in the 2nd last post.. overall is ok.. got a bit of troubles sometimes.. embarrasing moments.. haha, but is fine... staffs there r gd, especially ryan, haha he is a funny guy, i really enjoy working with this kind of person, humour and talkative plus helpful, not just working,  i likes to be with person with this type of personality, nvr get bored.. plus i hardly talks, really hope someone did all the talkings and i just listen haha.. yea, and ryan is my "shi fu" (trainer) as well, he really gd, nvr mad at me when i make mistakes (even though no one did haha), and seriously i am very "troublesome" .. haih working aint dat easy ah... haha anyway thx ryan for dat patient.. plus my other shi fu- esther, rajan, chris..

something bad abt the job, time not flexible, and i wan to change the roster, but wut the hell with the ppl there in charge, i have no idea how to get ppl to change it for me.. last tues oso like this, haih..

 

emm.. wut else to say.... not very interesting stuffs, school.... as usual.. not getting any betta, but sorta worsen, no mood to discuss abt dat... hehe, is already enough hurt from studies, i wan to change my attittude.. but just ... haih, don wanna talk abt it.. seriously..