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events coming up soon and after:

1. 12 midnite today, 1st of april, the april fool day, and leslie zhang guo rong rise to heaven day, and also sean bday, wah, nvr know tomlo is    so meaningful.

2. next tuesday, time for medical check up, gotta back to the place, full of sad memories, but think of positive, definitely will be gd news!

3. last but not least, next thursday, the begining of holiday...... 

 

the reason of letting the last sentence ends with "........" but not "!!!!", dunno y, my 1st time not looking forward for holiday, but anyway also don really like going to school as well, just crap..

hope for something, a change in my current life, normally i wud not say dat, but now really hope for a little changes.

don wan to be so quiet anymore in school

don wan to be so slack anymore

don wan to just be a freak dat only on9 and play games during holiday

don wan to live in life dats so meaningless

i just wan to live a little happier and betta....

 

y say until i m so down mood, actually a bit, and still dunno wut i really wan. getting bored of playing games, don really like studies, and something happen today dat just makes even hate to speak. y always sumthing i said is wrong, i hate talking cuz i know i cant win, i don have the technic ok! i don like to argue, no one likes to argue! y just makes me feels like i m useless, i m just a piece of crap! so don say y everytime u talking to me i don answer, cuz i dunno wut to answer, i m not mute, but sometimes i really wanna be mute, at least i have the right to not answer. u just makes me hate talking! becuz i dunno how to say in the way u wan me to say! i just cant and dunno how to answer, and then let u think i m stuck-up, don simply comment on others, if ppl don talk to u u say they r stuck-up, wut kind of bullshit is dat, stereotype freak!

gone a bit out of topic, but feeling a bit betta now haha.  

 

Jia You!!!!! Aka Aka Fighting!!!!

m i getting lazy?

since tony boy and sean back already wif all the games and mangas, get distracted, canoot be so slack anymore, but hard to resist, ahhhh wut shud i do??!!!

try, try, no matter wut jia you, celine!! u can do it de!! but when in de school dat time always see the smarties dat so hard working eventhough dey already so smart, really gets this kind of pressure, feels very incompetitive, feels like falling behind, how can dat happen! celine! u can not let urself back to those hibernate seasons! no not anymore!!

ok.....but still....... erghhh!!

just jia you la!!

 

btw, day light savings ova??!! is it really true??!! den got one hour extra, if not tomolo go to school one hour late, how embarrassing, haha, hope really ova.....haha, can sleep bit later now..

arghhhh SHITZ WUT THE HELL!!!!! DAM U !!!!!!

today really piss me off!

lost my mobile in school......y wud this happen...cant remember puttin it somewhere. or just some bustard steal it...

no one answering when i call, no where in the house...arghhhhh, if really got stolen by someone...dam u!!!!!!

my only mobile, my very 1st new mobile, just gone like dat, i feels like idiot dat always get things lost....last time my wallet got stolen this time my mobile.....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

curse dat bustard dat steal my mobile, curse u!!!!!! really piss off!!!! so angry and yet heartache, arghhh

 

 

no mood to continue, haizzzz....

mayb.....i just dunno wut to say.....

crappy curvy is no longer crappy anymore.....hehe, really started to feel like....talking is .....so hard...sometimes.....*sigh* would it ends?....

haven actually says abt my school days, actually....everything is fine de...just....

i mean 1st day in school dat time theres 2 classmates dat spoke to me...very happy dat time since i m kinda "new"...

though still in same highschool, but everything just so strange to me, as if the 1st time stepping to it, as if....feeling...kinda...so lonely

i got this feeling.....its been a long time, and now this feeling is back, really...don like it at all...sour and bitter and also empty.....

 

remember last time this feeling 1st appear to me is during standard 6 primary..... long time and its back again...., same situation i guess, though i keep telling myself u cant return to dat time, this feeling is only illusion, after a while......just a while ....it will ova.... but i guess....haha...i m just deceiving myself...it is not as strong as standard 6 dat time, but really don like it at all......not even a bit....

 

and sometimes oso tell myself is just a feeling, if it don goes off den just cope wif it, slowly will use to it......if it is dat easy....

talking is easy...but now it seems to be so difficult...i dunno y....

 

or i just dunno wut to say......i really don wan to return to standard 6 dat time.....not anymore...when i so hard only find my way out......y this feeling is back again.......................................?

talk or blog

i tend to write a lot in my blog, so much to says but din says it out, so i write in blog.

 

something wans to tell others but din dare to, cuz always so concern whether sumting i said or sumthing i did will offence anyone or not, and really have dat experience long ago dat offenced someone, so since dat day not very much talking, or actually don dare to talk.

den slowly started to talk much and sometimes become quite talkative now, haha, but still don really dare to says out all i wan.

if anyone get offenced by me b4 i say sorry here even if u don wanna forgive me, but atleast hope u don come here and slash me wif a parang, if u really wanna do dat i would have to run away now.

 

hope no one will hate me up to this stage, haha. 

silence 深情密码

wan to write blog in chinese!!

but no chinese typing program...

so if i really wan to type chinese, i can oni use chinese google.

the point is i cant keep typing pin yin in google, then search, then copy and paste in order to write this blog....

haizz, den no point...

 

 

 

recently addicted to silence 深情密码, in malaysia dat time oso c tv is showing (8tv i guess) but din watch it, coz bought the dvds adi, wan to watch it when back to perth. 2nd day back to perth, started the series den cant stop liao, is too gd!!! too nice!!! zai zai is so cool!!! park eun hye is so pretty!!! and the love story is so touching!!!

but too bad oni me watching the series, guys wont appreaciate this kind of tragic love stories, and my mum is not here watching with me, haizzz. so everytime after school, 1st thing rush to the tv, put dvd in the player, jump to the sofa, put the tissue box besides me (eventhough not really crying, just sneezing), then play. and always feel so miserable after watching it, so i thought issit becoz of school?? but mayb wut makes me so sad these few days is the series, always after the series oni feels sad, haizz.

and today actually goin to watch last two episodes (in oni 1 week complete the series adi), but the stupid pirated DVD, last 2 cannot work!!!! ahhh!!! the end of the world!!! really, now i cannot c the last 2 episodes, i feel even more miserable.....

lucky lilyn got the series so can borrow from her....but gotta wait!! hope dat the ending is not bad 1, if not i really gonna smash the DVDs, chop it and burn it, and hate everyone in silence...muahahahaha...jk jk, gone crazy liao, anyway i don dare to do it, cuz gonna clean up later, and i really dun wanna hate zai zai and park eun hye, hehe, (even though u two waste all my precious tears )

 

but anyway, recommend this to others that haven watch it, really worth watching, at least i think this is the best love story i have eva watch, really touching!!!