Apr 29, 2007

little bit abt myself..


switch back to to english mode, very marfan to type chinese, even though i really wanna type chinese, wait till i have the program 1st la.

yesterday play basketball with my bros, dunno y always lose, ppl dat team wif me wil nvr wins, but anyways just a game so don wanna sounds so serious abt it. not so gd in skills, plus the rest r guys, cant expect me to win them. all i can do in the court is just snatching ball from others, only thing i m quite gd in it hehe. too bad always lost the ball when ppl pass to me, and cant even shoot, no matter how well my position is. wuts wrong wif de ball, always oppose my will, dunno issit the prob wif my fingers, butter fingers? mayb my hand too smooth, cant hold the ball, or just de ball don like me, haha, crazy liao..

so basketball really not my type, cant even run much, after a while started to feel exhausting, breath taking in hurt my throat ...or lung?? somewhere in between... too streneous for me, i m not sporty enough.....   

prefer badminton, considered my favourite sport, and the best sport i can play, still too bad compare to others. no court in my house, so just plain playing, with no net in between, and not indoor, lucky my house got a back yard dats large enough. too bad winds blowing sometimes and shuttlecock always fly to the roof, how many up there i cant remember, sometimes when winds blows again the shuttlecock falls from roof back to ground. badminton is fun, but becoz playing in the back yard that suppose to be grassy, due to long term of badminton activities on it, all the grass are killed (most of it), now my back yard becomes botak, kill the scenery, just becoz of badminton...... 

 

(start mourning for all the grass that sacrifice themselves for our entertainment)

 

~3 minutes later~

 

continue.... now.....one week after school open, nth interesting in school, so don wanna talk abt it, and then next fri, school ball, again i din go, miss 2 balls already but don care la. wonder y i m so anti-social, always isolated from others, not i want to be like dat, like i said i don like it at all, haihh. school ball dat case, many ppl ask me y not go, i actually don know how to answer, money is a matter, but the overall reason r not money..haih. mayb just like Mr Bani said, don wanna go coz i have no frens, so am i really like dat? don wanna admit it, but i know i m, haha, cry.....好可悲. don think till so depth la, mayb situation is not as bad as i thought.... emmm if anyone c this.... don think anyone will c this ba. hehe, i do treat everyone as frens, mayb i din express it, but dunno abt wut others think, dats another matter. 

and finally learn to apreaciate frenships, thx for all my malaysia mates and last yr lynwood school mates dat accompany me till now, eventhough not always c u guys, but will nvr forgets u all de.   

 

 

Apr 24, 2007

y not dream? hehe.....

haven been to my blog for so long, dunno wut to write annymore...

so school started again, nth much really, lots of tests popping up, but don care la, hahahaha... schools life are as usual, once again, really really really hope highschool faster end, but still no ideas wut to do actually after dat. last time use to tell others i wanna do veterinarian, though my parents don really like it, i still hold a strong will to do it, and dats y i repeat yr 12. but now just a bit doubted, whether doing vet is a right choice, i like animals, but even not doing vets can also shows dat i m an animal lover, hehe.... so when think a bit deeper...... mayb vet not very suitable for me, and also think myself not being responsible enough (dats really true).

 

a bit giving up now haha....

 

then wut abt the one yr u r repeating now?

 

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!!!!!!!!

(sigh)

 

wut u gonna do now, u dunoo! u idiot! don keep thinking abt something that will not happen! clear now? wake up, celine!

 

i m awake, but i wish to dream......

not real, but .....enjoy dat feeling

not sure, but........ at least i m hoping

hoping for some miracles.......

 

haha, i don think anyone wud understand wuts going on in the last part, anyway actually the last part not very link to the first part, but also a bit make sense if reads carefully....

 

finally i know is a bit stupid..... but i just like to dream, hehe :)